Find the pattern!

As I spent a week working from home with my three children, and what blessings from God they are!
I've realized that I don't like confusion, loud noises and screaming, lol.
To try to change some of the things that make me irritable I had to really spend time with myself and God to try to look back at my early kid years to try to find out why I am so sensitive to such confusion.
God really showed me this week that when my parents used to argue when I was a child it would cause such anxiety in me to the point that it felt like my head was going to explode.  There are patterns that are caused in our upbringing that need to be chipped away little by little.
I know looking back at my life before establishing my relationship with God that indeed I am not the same person of twenty years ago but there's still things in me and in my personality that I am trying to understand and change.

 
"And the vessel that he was making from clay was spoiled in the hand of the potter; so he made it over, reworking it into another vessel as it seemed good to the potter to make it." Jeremiah 18:4

I think I might be at that potter's wheel most likely until the end of time but thank God I am making strides each day and part of those strides is to understand the patterns that I have created during my life time that brings conflict. By me recognizing the cause of something it enables me to make the necessary strides for change.