From teenager to Pastor's wife

I remember the day in my lost teen years when I felt alone and extremelly unhappy. No one or anything could shake these feelings out of me. This was until the day I found the Jesus loved me unconditionally despite my sins. What caused a lot of my unhappiness was being raised in a home where my father was very little at home and my mother was consumed by her unhappy marriage. I didn't realized then that what I had hoped to have,which was a home where both father and mother showed each other respect and a lot of love, was the same thing that my mother wanted. I believe because of being raised in a less than ideal home made my acceptance of Jesus into my life a easy decision. Little did I know the road that I was a about to travel. To make a long story short, when it was mentioned to me that I should date a Pastor, despite not feeling any connection emotionally I felt that I owed it to God to put my feelings aside. Two months later I was married and still no emotional connection. All I can tell you I was determined to find out exactly what type of agenda God had for my life. We were quickly moving from the east coast to the deep south. Now I was stuck away from home with this stranger forever. It might have been one of my first life lessons. I had to learn has a Pastor's wife not to be opinionated. That was a struggle especially when you are told and see things that crush your pride. I believe the reason why God has honored me by giving me an amazing (unique) husband and beautiful children is due to my early sacrifice of my pride. I truly placed heart and soul in trusting that God knew me better than myself. I encourage you to trust that God knows you better than you know yourself. That He will bring forth the desires of your heart if you make Him your priority. My priority was always to please God even when I was surrounded by not so wise men and women of God. That is right, even those that are from God can make foolish mistakes that can shake your foundation of faith. perhaps you have been disappointed by someone who was supposed to be a godly example. I pray that you won't allow someone else's spiritual immaturity ruin what God has so diligently started in you. Press on, like the word says we need to press on thru the narrow gate to the kingdom of God. That's right push yourself pass disappointments, unforgiveness, doubt, selfishness...and so much more that will try to keep you from the blessings that Gos has ONLY for you.