This is who I am!

Do you feel that sometimes you wonder around the same mountain repeatedly?  I know I’ve felt that on several different occasions.  Just when you think you overcame one of your many imperfections the same one tends to creek up on you again.  It gets frustrating and often we wonder what is wrong with us.  But if you are that perfect angelical person then disregard what I’m saying because this couldn’t possibly apply to you. 

All the amazing people that I’ve been so blessed to know seem to share the same pattern of thinking.  They all feel that they aren’t godly enough or aren’t the ideal wife, friend or mother.  We spend more time wondering what is wrong with us than focusing on how amazing and unique we are.  Before truly knowing God at a personal level I thought that I was worthless and that I wasn’t as pretty as other girls or as funny or pleasing to be around with.  However when I learned that God loved me I found out that God had a purpose for my life and I was no longer living in vain. 

My table of comparisons didn’t stop when I got to know God it just became different.  Now I was comparing myself to all the women of my church.  I spent much of my Christian years feeling inadequate because I wasn’t praying enough, or fasting enough or I wasn’t has spiritual as the next pastor’s wife.  So as you can see even women that serve God have insecurities and often feel that they aren’t as amazing as they truly are. 

I had to learn to know my unique personality and learn to accept that God knew exactly what He was doing when He created me.  I’m different, not perfect, sometimes too talkative and sometimes quiet and almost invisible in big crowds.  But most importantly I am me!  I had to learn how to accept that people can actually like me and that I am ok to be around with.  God still managed to use me to do His will even with all my many imperfections.  And like a famous preacher often says “I know I am not where I need to be but thank God that I’m not where I used to be”.

So don’t forget about the accomplishments that you have acquired.  Don’t allow yourself to get overwhelmed by your idea of an ideal person but start liking yourself for who God created you to be. 

“I will praise you; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are your works; and that my soul knows right well.” Psalm 139:14