How valuable do you feel?

Do you feel valuable all the time?  I know i don't, often in the past i always felt that i wasn't doing enough of what is expected of me.  To my amazement there are so many more women that also feel at times this lack of value or worth.  Just yesterday i was reading a letter from a Pastor's wife that i had worked with fourteen years ago.  When i worked with her she always seemed to have everything so well put together, she was beautiful full of faith and it seemed that nothing could put her down, You know the super spiritual woman that at times even her desire to serve God often came across a bit harsh towards those that weren't working at the same pace as she was.
When i was reading this letter i discovered that after i had moved back to my hometown  she was struggling with some of the decisions that she had made.  I often wondered what had happened to her since it has been about eleven years since i haven't seen her.  In her letter she describes how she felt that she wasn't serving God the right way and how she struggled with the emptiness of not having a child.  I realized that we can be more alike than what we think at times.  For a very long time i struggled within myself for not being able to have children.  I often thought well i decided to give my all to God and that included my desire to be a mother.  I almost felt that i didn't have the right to even place such a request before God.  Little did i know that God knew that i wasn't ready to take the role of being a mom.  People aren't joking when they say that everything changes when you have children.  It certainly does change, the time we have to ourselves changes, you can no longer just go where you desire at the time you want to because you have to take into consideration nap times, feeding times, changing times...  
I believe that this woman that i spoke of earlier  just wasn't ready to have children, i believe God knew that she couldn't handle the stresses of ministry, housewife and the full responsibility of caring for children.   Sometimes what we want isn't always what we can handle to have.
Luckily for this woman through her struggles she was able to see a different plan for her life and when she saw that plan she started to live her life with joy, the way that God intends for us to live our lives daily.
Your value isn't on the amount of things you do but on the joy that you have when you do those things.  People seem to place value on the amount of things they can scratch off their list instead of living life with daily joy with what God has already given you.  I remember God speaking to me with such strength that it pierced my soul, when He revealed to me that i need to stop thinking of all the things i need to do and enjoy my family. 
I was doing everything on my to do list but not enjoying my family.  I was so focused on what needed to be done that anything that came my way to halter my daily plan would just irritate me.  Lets face it when you have kids your daily plans never go according to plan.  So needless to say i was often irritated.  I started to loose my joy.  That is until God literally slapped me out of my bad moods.  Now i try to focus on every moment i have them and i try to record into my mind all the funny things they do.  I pray that you set your value on enjoying your daily life with the amazing blessings that God has already granted you and not on what you feel you need to do to earn value.  Besides Jesus already paid the price so that we don't have to live our life in bondage so why live everyday like we are slaves?  You have been set free so start showing your joy!